Should I stay or should I go?

Why one lifelong Catholic abandoned the church in the middle of mass — and is now grappling with where to turn to next. The other, a convert and a lesbian, says leaving 'wasn't even a question.'
A man prays in front of a Jesus Christ statue during Sunday Mass in the San Juan Cathedral in San Juan, Puerto Rico. (Ricardo Arduengo/AFP/Getty Images)
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Catholics around the world are doing some soul-searching — grappling with the question of how best to respond to the sexual abuse crisis in the church. You'll meet two people who've done their share of agonizing and landed in very different places.

Deirdre Pike converted to Catholicism in her teens. And she says there's no way she's leaving. "It wasn't even a question frankly," Deirdre tells Tapestry. "It wasn't a decision. I didn't go home that day, thinking, 'Oh, will I leave the church?' I just keep thinking, 'How am I going to change the church?'"  

At the other end of this divide is Mary Elizabeth Williams - a life-long Catholic, until the day she walked out of church. Literally.  "If your faith isn't… making you feel deeply within your soul that you are loved unconditionally and that you are part of something big and powerful and GOOD in the world, then it's time to re-examine that relationship," she says