Now Or Never

Cancer patient uses her bald head as a canvas for incredible art

'One day I was sitting in my art studio, hooked up to a bag full of saline and gravol to keep me from being sick, and I realized I was surrounded by all of my arts and craft supplies.'

When Kari Lynn Hewett lost her hair, she realized that bald doesn't have to be boring

After chemo, Kari Lynn Hewett lost her hair but not her playfulness. (Submitted by Kari Lynn Hewett)

When Kari Lynn Hewett was diagnosed with breast cancer in early 2017, she worried about how it would affect her identity.

"I had just moved to Leamington, Ont., and I really didn't want to give the impression to everyone I had just met that this was the 'sick girl'," she said. 

She also wanted to be honest about her situation. But going through chemotherapy and losing her hair wasn't easy. 

"The night that it all fell out, I sat there looking at the stubble thinking and feeling that everything was just wrong." - Kari Lynn Hewett

"When the hair comes out there is no denying that this is what I am going through."

It was in that dark moment, alone with her failing health, a newly bald head, and a camera, that Hewett had an idea. She decided to take photos of herself with stuff on her head and post them online.

"One day I was sitting in my art studio, hooked up to an IV pole — a bag full of saline and gravol to keep me from being sick," she recalled. "I was surrounded by all of my arts and craft supplies." 

"I started by sticking some faux fur on my head in a mohawk."

Kari Lynn Hewett's first creation came from using faux fur and making it into a mohawk. (Submitted by Kari Lynn Hewett)

"Then another day I stuck some buttons to my head."

Kari Lynn Hewett stuck buttons to her head using a face mask as glue. (Submitted by Kari Lynn Hewett)

She even made a head band using various doll parts.

Kari Lynn Hewett made a headband out of doll parts. (Submitted by Kari Lynn Hewett)

As soon as Hewett starting posting photos on her Facebook page, people began reacting, even sending her requests — including one from a friend who lived on a farm.

"I made a little sheep out of cotton balls," she recalled. "I put it on a hillside, created a little clothesline. The sheep was eating little flowers off of the grass on my head. That was a lot of fun."

This creation was a request from a friend who lived on a farm. (Submitted by Kari Lynn Hewett)

For Hewett, doing this was a much-needed distraction while she was going through her treatment.

It really helped me hold on to those things that the chemo doesn't take away.- Kari Lynn Hewett

"I could focus on my humour. I could focus on my aesthetic sense. I could focus on my social connections that were being bolstered through the interactions over this whole thing."

Unfortunately Hewett's cancer has recently returned. She would like to connect with other people who are going through the experience of chemotherapy and find themselves struggling with identity issues.

"What are the parts of them that this chemo is not going to take away?," she wondered.

"What are the things that they need to focus on, [what is] an image that would help them hold on to things so that they could come out the other side feeling the way that I do?"

Have you lost your hair during chemotherapy? To reach Kari Lynn Hewett, visit her website. 

Kari Lynn Hewett revised her eight ball creation with a 'You Got This!' version for our Now or Never Facebook group. (Submitted by Kari Lynn Hewett)


Originally aired in February, 2019


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