Stormy seas clear a sailor’s mind

Stormy seas clear a sailor’s mind

'After two hours of going downwind, it started to get chaotic. A capsize seemed inevitable.'

By Sarah Douglas for CBC Sports
May 22, 2019

In the sport of sailing, elemental forces dominate the field of play.

We sail at the sufferance of wind, waves, tides and whatever else the environment throws at us. For all the days of champagne sailing through beautiful venues, there are others that test our ability to endure. In Olympic sailing, I’ve had days when I was surprised to reach land. Days I asked myself, “Why do I do this?”

Sarah Douglas, right, with her teammates at the 2017 Laser European Championships. (Photo submitted by Sarah Douglas) Sarah Douglas, right, with her teammates at the 2017 Laser European Championships. (Photo submitted by Sarah Douglas)

It was the lead up to the peak event of the summer, the 2017 World Championships in Medemblik, Holland. The Canadian team was in the Netherlands to learn about the venue. It was crucial for us to study the man-made lake we were competing on and to get to know the wind patterns. For ten days in June, I was training with Canadian coach Vaughn Harrison, Brenda Bowskill (Rio 2016 Olympian), Denmark’s Anne-Marie Rindom (Rio 2016 Bronze medallist), and her coach. We set up training drills on the water and took notes on the conditions each day. We saw an opportunity to sail our Lasers across the shallow, windswept Ijsselmeer. The forecast was for stronger winds from the south west, which would allow us to sail downwind across the lake from Medemblik to the harbour at Stavoren.  Our target marina was approximately 20 kilometres away. We could not see it from where we stood at the sailing centre.

We headed out on the water at 11 a.m. We started with our usual warm up drills. Doing boat handling in that amount of breeze is a real challenge, even for experienced sailors like myself. To give a sense of conditions, racing is cancelled at winds of 25 knots and we were between 20-25. But today we decided that we could handle the wind and we set sail for the cross-lake voyage.


A disastrous picture

It’s 18 degrees, the water is brackish-brown, and the short, steep waves are a challenge. We decide to leapfrog down — set a downwind mark in the water, race toward it, and then take a break.  After about one hour, the wind starts to pick up and the waves really begin to build.  The shallow waters here create steep waves, and as you sit on top of them, about to surf downhill, your only option is to do a sharp, 30-degree turn before you hit the trough.  Because of the waves’ steepness and the length of the boats, if we continue straight down, the front of the boat would submerge and we’d capsize. The further we go into the middle of the lake, the bigger the waves grew, and the windier it got.  Gusts are now at 30 knots and the sailing went from exhilarating, to unknown. We aren’t sure if we’re going to make it across. 

After two hours of going downwind, it starts to get chaotic. A capsize seems inevitable, but we could see land on the other side now. Gusts edge up to 35-40 knots. Water is lifting off the surface of the lake; one momentary mistake and we would be swimming. Three hours pass, and we finally enter the marina in Stavoren. We de-rig our boats, take our masts down, and prepare them to be towed back.  The worst is over, I thought. We made it to the other side.

The plan now was to tie our boats together and tow them home after a long journey. Jackets on, protein shakes in hand, we three Canadians were ready to head back to the sailing centre alongside the Danish team, motoring in the boat next to us.


Things get worse

We exit the marina slowly, line our boats up and get ready to go full speed for home. We are sitting in a row in the coach boat, motorcycle style, when we hit the first wave. The boat goes vertical in the air.  My teammate and I fall into the back of the boat and the engine starts churning froth and air. We need more weight in the bow so I sit at the front. With each wave, the bow goes airborne, hangs, then slams down again. I brace for impact; I try to absorb the landings with my legs, but my back takes the brunt of the impact. It feels as though my vertebrae are being compressed.

After about an hour, we hadn’t made much progress. The boat just can’t travel through the waves. We decide to transfer me into the Danish coach boat, which is more powerful. I wave goodbye to my coach and teammate as we race home, hopefully before running out of gas. We zoomed ahead. As we near the sailing centre, I can barely see the Canadian boat on the horizon behind us.

The Olympic dream

During the tow home, I thought about the choices I had made that brought me to one of the scariest sailing days of my life.  Time had flown by, but seven years earlier I had retired from competition as a successful youth sailor. I placed second at the 2010 Youth Nationals, the same year I decided that I no longer enjoyed sailing.  In the summers that followed, I coached youth athletes and went to volleyball camp. It wasn’t until 2013, when I was an alternate for the Canada Summer Games, that my Olympic dream was sparked. I was at a Team Ontario camp in Toronto, listening to Olympians, Para-Olympians and Pan Am Athletes talking about their Olympic journey. One of those athletes was Rosie MacLennan, who described her 2012 London gold medal and what it meant to her. Rosie’s talk re-lit the fire in me. I was inspired again to pursue a medal in sailing. I committed myself fully to training, and to all the choices that go with an Olympic campaign.

Six hours after leaving the dock that morning in 2017, I stepped back onto land with tears in my eyes. It had been such a gruesome day on the water. I thought about how this was part of the journey, that compared to this day, any future sailing would feel easy. Life is about choices and I made mine. I am pursuing my dream and it’s not always going to be smooth sailing.  After that session in Holland, I came back to race at the World Championships and cut my distance from the podium in half from the previous year by finishing 12th overall.  I am ranked top 10 in the world now.  I often reminisce about that day.  It reminds me that I can handle anything on this journey to the 2020 Olympic Games.

(All pictures provided by Sarah Douglas)

The Sarah Douglas edition

Q: The best book you've ever read? 
A: The Champion's Mind

Q: Must-listen podcast? 
A: I love 'How I Built This' or the 'The Rich Roll Podcast'

Q: Best advice you ever received? 
A: I know it's cliche, but, 'enjoy the journey.' I wear a bracelet that has that motto and it reminds me to continue to have fun and make the most out of every day.

Q: If your life was a movie, what would it be called? 
A: The Food Diaries

Q: What word or phrase do you over use? 
A: That's lit

Q: What is a skill you wish you had? 
A: Singing or any sort of musical talent

Q: What's something no one would guess about you? 
A: Netflix documentary Minimalist changed my life

Q: What scares you? 
A: Grasshoppers, moths, and heights

Q: If you could have the ultimate influential dinner party, who are the 6 people you'd invite?
A: Will Smith, Tony Robbins, Michelle Obama, Kevin Hart, Lindsey Vonn, Ross Edgley

Q: What makes you cry, every time? 
A: Don't cry often, but watching 'Marley and Me' will do it

Q: What's the next goal you want to accomplish?
A: To get off of AUTO mode on my DSLR camera

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