Diary casts accused killer as 'lonely,' sleepless

Diary entries made by accused killer James Bing Jun Louie in the run-up to the deaths of his children have been released by Alberta Court of Queen's Bench.
The bodies of Ying Louie's two children, aged 13 and nine, were found inside their northwest home in November 2009. Their father James Bing Jun Louie is accused of killing them. ((CBC))

Diary entries made by accused killer James Bing Jun Louie in the run-up to the deaths of his children have been released by Alberta Court of Queen's Bench.

The diaries, written in English and translated Cantonese, were made available to the media late Friday.

Louie, 44, is charged with two counts of first-degree murder in the deaths of his 13-year-old son, Jason Louie, and his nine-year-old daughter, Jane, and the attempted murder of his wife Ying Tang.

The entries cover Louie's separation from Tang and their money issues, but also offer insight into some of the personal problems Louie was experiencing in the summer and fall of 2009.

"Since I married with my Dear wife YING. I have felt that my heart was very uncomfortable. Especially when I was lying on the bed, it seemed that there were something crushing on my chest," Louie wrote in an undated entry.

"I know that she has lots of wishes. But I think that I, myself cannot fulfill and realize all for her. For this, till today, till this moment, I am sorry to her."

Louie was a mechanic without a high school diploma. Tang suggested he stay home while she worked as a petroleum engineer making about $160,000 a year.

In another email dated July 24-25, he writes he doesn't regret the decision to stay home from work. Louie writes there are both positives — he can make dinner for the kids — and negatives — his social "circle is small" — to this role.

'Brain was stiff'

"Ying told me that she wanted to have freedom. She [wanted] to go anywhere then she can go anywhere. Not necessary to tell me. She wanted to have her own space. She wanted to sleep by herself," he wrote on July 26.

"For the following several days I kept talking to her that for the sake of this family and Jason and Jane, don't do that."

On Aug. 18, Louie writes that he had discovered an "exchange of love communication" between Tang and another person.

"She confirmed this is a fact. At that time, I could not believe this. My brain was stiff," he wrote.

The other person in the email was a coworker of Tang's whose name the court has blacked out on public documents, referring to him simply as "Mario."

Tang travelled to France in mid-October, at which time Mario was in Paris.

Defence to present case

"Every night, I could not sleep," Louie wrote on Oct. 13, while Tang was in France. "But I have no peoples to talk to, to speak out words from my heart. Jane and Jason sleep very well. They are children, children of no worries. I do have huge stress. I love my children very much. For them, I will do whatever I can to work out all the things for them. But sometimes, I don't want them to leave me. I feel that I am lonely.

"One has to sort things for oneself. However, with two kids, it is even more difficult. Leaving them, sometimes I reach the bottom of the valley. Don't know how much low still down there."

The Crown alleges Louie strangled his son with a rope as the boy prepared for school on the morning of Nov. 27, 2009. The accused then used his hands to strangle his daughter in her bed, the Crown said.

Tang testified last week that Louie tried to strangle her when she went to the home to check on the children, but that police intervened.

The trial continues this week as the defence presents its case.