Mother of fallen B.C. soldier to lay wreath at Ottawa Remembrance Day ceremony
Colleen Fitzpatrick, whose son died in Afghanistan at age 21, chosen to be 2016 Silver Cross Mother
Colleen Fitzpatrick doesn't often visit her son's grave.
"It's a place of finality," she said. "I like to go to places that are positive, where I can feel Darren's presence."
Places like the family cabin, she says. In life, Darren would play with his cousins and two brothers every summer there on the shore of Stuart Lake in northeast B.C.
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"That's where I feel his presence. The cabin was his favourite place on Earth, the family cabin, and the new park that's named after Darren," she said, referring to the Darren Fitzpatrick Bravery Park in Prince George.
"That's where Darren would have wanted to be. There's youth, there's lots of fun happening. That's where he would be."
Cpl. Darren Fitzpatrick was a soldier in the 3rd Battalion of Princess Patricia's Canadian Light Infantry.
He died after stepping on an improvised explosive device while on patrol near Kandahar City, Afghanistan, in 2010. He was 21 years old.
His mother has been chosen as the Canadian Legion's Silver Cross Mother for this year's Remembrance Day ceremonies in Ottawa.
She will lay a wreath on the cenotaph at the National War Memorial on behalf of all Canadian mothers who have lost a son or a daughter serving in the military.
It's an honour, she says, but one she expects will include an emotional struggle.
'The most precious times'
Fitzpatrick describes her son as an inquisitive, fun-loving boy who lived life to the fullest.
His decision to join the Canadian Forces came as a surprise, but upon reflection, she and her husband, Jim, came to understand it.
"I could see him doing things that wanted impact," she said. "I was scared, we talked about that. I was a bit nervous but I also wanted to support him.
"He was a redhead. Strong-willed. There was no way we were going to change his mind, regardless."
Darren enlisted after graduating from high school in 2006. He served four years before being mortally wounded by the IED.
After being wounded, he was stabilized in Kandahar and flown to Landstuhl, Germany, where he saw his parents and brothers one last time.
"We were at Darren's bedside day by day, hour by hour. He was awake, he was conscious. He had the opportunity to speak with each of us," she said.
"That was probably the toughest time.… But I would not have given those up for anything. Those were the most precious times that we had."
Fitzpatrick said Darren's only request was to come back to Canada and be with his family.
His wish was granted. He died in a hospital in Edmonton.
Calls other moms 'inspirational'
Darren's death has left his family with what Fitzpatrick calls an everyday, internal struggle.
She said she's learned to live her life differently. Her other sons struggle to talk about Darren, but she said they have become compassionate, strong men after his death.
"We do have family conversations about Darren for sure, memories and stories. We laugh together," she said.
"I feel blessed that we had Darren in our lives for 21 years. He's a very special person and I'm just really joyful that we had that time together."
Fitzpatrick said she's humbled to be a Silver Cross Mother and join "inspirational" women who share the struggle that she and her family live with.
She said she wants to send a message about the importance of respect for veterans, deceased and living, when she lays her wreath at the cenotaph.
But it will be a far cry from the way she prefers to remember her son: at the cabin or at his park, with the sounds of children having fun around her.
To hear an interview with Colleen Fitzpatrick on CBC Radio One's Daybreak North, click the audio labelled: Prince George woman chosen to be 2016 Silver Cross Mother
With files from Michael Drapack