I've competed in three Olympic Games and as a competitor I'm not sure I'll ever be able to say that I feel good about my Olympics.
 
I love sports, I love jumping and I love competing. I've felt the ups and downs of my sport and have learned so much from it.

I worked so hard for so long. Doing everything I was told. After my struggle with a concussion, which took me out of training for eight months, I was as prepared as humanly possible with only 20 days of jumping.

I was jumping so well. I believed I was going to nail it. Then one small mistake on my speed led me to break form and put me in a position that was difficult to land.  I run it over and over in my head. I can't stop the loop.  

I know I'm worth more than the fifteenth place you see on the result sheet. My first jump, which had me in third place, proved I was capable. It's too bad I never got to show the world.

I can at least be at peace in knowing I did everything I could. My coaches, saw how great I was doing. They know the details of the odds I had to beat. They know that not only did I manage to qualify for the team, but I had worked hard to put myself in a position where I was a medal threat.

Canadians are upset about their tax dollars. They were given expectations of winning the medal count and now many are slamming every athlete that doesn't come through. I do have to say in defence of the Canadian athletes, winning Olympic medals is not just a four year investment. Other countries have been supporting their athletes for decades the way Canada has for the past four years. They may have had a head start.

The one positive feeling I have from being here is the pride I get from the amazing job Canada has done in welcoming the world. The workers and volunteers are so incredible. They are helpful, friendly and hard working. Whenever I cross paths with them, it puts a smile on my face and warmth in my heart because it truly shows my competitors and other visitors to our country what great people we are. These are a beautiful Olympic games.

I'd like to thank my federation. I'm so lucky to be in a sport where the people in the office care and love the sport just as much as the athletes. Thank you to the medical staff that did everything they could to make sure I was healthy. Thank you to the sponsors who've been there for my sport through thick and thin.

To my coaches, who know me better than anyone and never stopped believing in me, thank you. I couldn't have done it without you. I know you would say there is nothing to apologize for.

It's just 24 hours after my event and my wounds are fresh. I know that with time they will heal but there will always be a scar.