Money alone can't compensate for what they lost, say Sixties Scoop adoptees who are waiting to hear more details about an expected $800-million settlement from the federal government.
Sources told CBC News that survivors will get between $25,000 to 50,000 in an announcement scheduled for 9:30 a.m. ET Friday. Roughly $100 million will be dedicated to other reconciliation initiatives, the sources said.
From 1965 to 1984, Indigenous children were were sent for adoption outside their communities, often ending up with white families. Now adults, the Sixties Scoop adoptees say it resulted in culture shock that caused psychological harm that has dogged survivors into adulthood.
"It was just a shock to finally have some acknowledgement that what was done to us to rob us of our culture and identity and our childhoods was wrong," Sixties Scoop adoptee Christine Cameron said.
'It shouldn't have been this way'
But Cameron said the announcement brought mixed feelings.
"It's not happy news. It shouldn't have been this way," she said.
The settlement will be national in scope, and is expected to put an end to most of the 18 related lawsuits that are active throughout the country.
"This was such a shameful thing to not be able to talk about for so long. I didn't know that there were other people," she said.
'A lot of confusion and shame'
Cameron, 46, is originally from Little Pine First Nation, Sask. She was the youngest of seven children and was adopted to a white family in the town of Wynyard in 1973 at the age of two.
'I didn't know that there were other people. I just thought that it was just me.' - Christine Cameron
"The picture that I was given of the people that I came from — because I did have questions — wasn't a very pleasant one. There was a lot of confusion and shame, I was always reminded of how 'lucky' I was to be raised by white people."
She grew up isolated from her family, not knowing anything about them.
"I didn't know that there were other people. I just thought that it was just me. I didn't realize that it was such a government, country-wide, international scandal," said Cameron.
'Like meeting strangers'
"For me, I'm not sure how I feel about the money, just based on what my personal experience was, I think my biggest issue is loss of culture, loss of language," said another survivor, Sharon Dainard.
But, she said, "I think the figure is quite low for settlement purposes."
Dainard, 41, is originally from Roseau River First Nation, Man., but was taken from the hospital into foster care shortly after she was born. At 14 months old, she was adopted into a white family in Winnipeg.
However, her experience was different. Dainard grew up not knowing her cultural identity, but her adopted family never spoke badly about Indigenous people, and treated her well.
"My family loved me very much. That applies to my extended family," said Dainard of the family that adopted her.
I would use the settlement money to pursue what I've lost. - Sharon Dainard
Just last week, Dainard was in Ottawa at a gathering for Sixties Scoop survivors, so she knows that not all stories are as positive as hers.
"At the gathering that I was at, I would say at least 80 per cent had horrific stories, and it's not something that I can relate to," said Dainard.
"My issue is language loss, cultural loss, growing up in a white community, facing racism from early on. That was my experience."
When she met her biological family at 16, she said it was like meeting strangers. "There was no connection basically."
"If there wasn't a social worker pressuring people on my reserve, I would have grown up in my home community with my family, learning the traditions, culture and ceremony. That's something that I lack, and it's difficult to gain back," said Dainard.
She has had a hard time processing news of a settlement.
"I would use the settlement money to pursue what I've lost. I know, from other people's experience they say there's nothing that can replace being taken away, and I agree with that."