FINAL NOTE TO AYSEL FROM JARRAH
Salamualyakum Ganim Ayselim: (Arabic wording)
First of all, I want to you to know and be sure that I love you with all my heart. You must not doubt my love for you. I love you and I will love you forever; Habibi, Hayatim, Askim, Ganim, Albi; inte Habibi? I do not want you to be sad, I am still alive somewhere where you cannot see and hear me, but I will see you and know how you are doing. I will wait for you until you come to me. There comes a time for everyone to make a move. It is my fault that I gave you so many hopes about marriage, wedding, children, family and many other things.
I am what you wish for, but unfortunately you must wait a little bit until we will be together again. I did not flee from you, but did what I was supposed to do. You ought to be very proud, because it is an honor and you will see the result(s) and everybody will be happy.
I want you to stay as strong as I know you can be. Do what you were meant to do, keep your head up, but with a goal, never without a goal, you must always have a goal; always think “what for, why”. Always remember who and what you are. Stay strong, winners always carry their heads up high!
Hold on to what you have until we meet again, and then we will have a wonderful eternal life without any problems and sadness, in palaces of gold and silver and so much more. I did not leave you on your own. Allah is with you and your parents. Whenever you need anything ask Him. He listens and knows what is inside you.
Our prophet (S.A.S.) said: “He, who has no woman, is a poor man and she, who has no man, is a poor woman”. I will still come and get you, and if you get married, go ahead, have no fear. But as you know, I do not like all men…
Think about what you are and who deserves you.
I am taking you into my arms and kiss your hands and your head. I thank you and apologize for the wonderful, difficult five years that you have spent with me. Your patience will be rewarded, the Genat inscha Allah…
I am your prince and I will come for you.
Your man for life,
September 10, 2001