I am 20 years old and ventured to Ghana by myself a few months ago. I write, and this is part of a piece that I wrote two weeks after I got home. I saw things that I am tempted to say, I wish I never saw. But it isn't true. Because in Africa, you take the good with the bad. The bad strips you of what you thought you were, it takes off the layers you had grown from a lifetime of living. There was no remote control to change the channel. It was raw, and it made you raw. It broke you down into something you didn't know you could be.
But the good, you see, it healed you. It showed you why the sadness is worth working through, it showed you how something raw can become something beautiful and alive. It showed you that the smallest little moment can contain more happiness in it, than the largest space of sad. So I took the good with the bad, and it stripped away everything I held, and gave me back something more than I ever could have imagined.
The English language does not contain the words I have been searching for since I came home. This has been the most difficult thing I have ever tried to write in my entire life. And for those of you who know me, writing is not a difficult thing for me. But nothing I say, can do it justice. There is an ambiance, an atmosphere, a feeling, a voice, a euphoria, that takes over you. And now that I am home, all I feel is the void. I was not told it would be this hard to come home. I was not told that I would feel absolutely lost, and isolated. I was not told that I would quite literally be lost for words, because nothing I can say or show, will ever make anybody understand. I was not told that everything here would be seen through a shade of grey, through a shade of bitterness, through a shade of anxiety. I was not told that I would literally ache each day with sadness, with missing the little things, with constant vibrant reminders.
I miss, the crack of dawn. I miss, hearing the children come home from school. I miss, hugging them. I miss, holding Akwele while she hums. I miss, Francis screaming Sister Kailey How are YOU! I miss, being constantly, so unbelievably proud, of the older boys. I miss, the football games. I miss, hearing drumming at night. I miss, the girls saying grace. I miss, the boys insisting at taking our trays. I miss, the stunning sun sets. I miss, the late night dance parties in the living room. I miss, sitting in the kitchen learning to cook. I miss, the Michael Jackson crotch grabs. I miss, the big brown eyes. I miss, the dirt roads. I miss, the hills. I miss, the "You're Welcome!˜s. I miss, the goodnight hugs and kisses. I miss, being so god damn happy, and being surrounded by so much love.
Maybe now that I have written this all down, it will start to get easier. Maybe once life picks up again, it will start to get easier. Maybe once time passes, it will start to get easier. But there is one thing I refuse to give up, in order for it to get easier. I will never, for my entire life, ever, forget.
(Please visit this website: www.kpandospecialschool.webs.com it is a website I built for a special needs school in Ghana that needs a lot of help)
From Kailey Morin

Since my 1st visit to Uganda on my March Break in 2007 I have managed to raise over $100,000 to support the 163 orphans and vulnerable chilren in the Children of Hope project in Lira, northern Uganda. These young people lost parents to the Lord's Resistance Army and/or AIDS and all live in extreme poverty. All 163 are still in school because of the school fees and scholastic materisla provided by Children of Hope, which has also started 8 Income Generating Activities for the caregiver households.
Words cannot express how one feels after being introduced to Africa & its people - it steals your heart. Over the past 5 years, I have had the privelege of calling Nkamazi, Swaziland, my home away from home. Chief Gija and his people call me Phiwi which means "gift".
I loved exploring Egypt so much I returned four times and was continually amazed by the openness and grace of all the people I met from the deserts of Sinai to the heart of Cairo. Truly the most fascinating place in the Arab middle east and North Africa!
I have now been here in Dakar for three months. A hot, dusty place - parched Sahel awaiting imminent rainfall. I've dreamt of seeing the rains come to the Sahel since I was a kid - the blooming desert, more dramatic than spring following Canadian snowmelt, as the dormant plants are completely hidden in the desert sands. Soon enough I'll have more than fulfilled that dream. Except that I don't expect it will be quite the romantic scene I had envisioned, for I am in Dakar. 