Canadian

Where I Live Now

In this memoir, Sharon Butala opens up about living in southwest Saskatchewan and how the unexpected death of her husband left her with no place to call home.

Sharon Butala

When Sharon Butala's husband, Peter, died unexpectedly, she found herself with no place to call home. Torn by grief and loss, she fled the ranchlands of southwest Saskatchewan and moved to the city, leaving almost everything behind. A lifetime of possessions was reduced to a few boxes of books, clothes and keepsakes. But a lifetime of experience went with her and a limitless well of memory — of personal failures, of a marriage that everybody said would not last but did, of the unbreakable bonds of family.

Reinventing herself in an urban landscape was painful, and facing her new life as a widow tested her very being. Yet out of this hard-won new existence comes an astonishingly frank, compassionate and moving memoir that offers not only solace and hope but inspiration to those who endure profound loss.

Sharon Butala shares her insights into the grieving process and reveals the small triumphs and funny moments that kept her going. Where I Live Now is profound in its understanding of the many homes women must build for themselves in a lifetime. (From Simon & Schuster Canada)

Excerpt | Author interview

From the book

Often as I lie down in my bed, pull up the covers, and put out the light, settling in to spend another night alone here in Calgary, Alberta, I yearn to have my husband, Peter, with me again. I yearn not to be alone. But that is an old story, and among people in the last third of their lives, it is anything but unique. But, still, I lie at night and think of the past. I dream of it too — our life on the Great Plains to the east — and when I do, I wake filled with sadness. Once in a while a tiny part of me will for an instant take me over, allowing me to imagine there is a way to regain the past, but then reality returns, and my inner voice says, You know as well as you know anything on earth that he is gone forever. And yet, I am not sure I truly believe it.


From Where I Live Now by Sharon Butala ©2017. Published by Simon & Schuster Canada.

Author interview

Best selling Canadian author Sharon Butala moved from a ranch in Saskatchewan to Calgary after her husband died ten years ago. Butala has spent the past decade coming to terms with her grief, life in Calgary and writing a memoir examining that journey. 8:22

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